The best thing I’ve ever failed at - Mental Health Awareness Month

When I was in high school, I tried to take my own life. It was the best and most important thing I ever failed at. In the fog of depression, I felt hopeless for the future. The thoughts I repeated in my head were “I have no value to offer the world” and “It never gets better than this.” 

My grades never dropped. I didn’t skip out on any of my classes. I was a cheerleader, in the honor society, and always kept a smile on the outside while inside I was feeling horrible. I asked for help, but mental health wasn’t really discussed back then, and awareness and access was lacking in the rural area where I lived. 

I am forever grateful that I failed. I went to counseling and took antidepressants for a few years which helped me get through that season. 

Why am I sharing this? Because there are more people than ever struggling during this pandemic. If I can encourage one conversation that helps one person, it is worth it. I want to end the stigma around mental health, but to do that I have to be willing to share. 

If you are in a season of depression or feeling suicidal, it is not permanent. There is help. This season is temporary. You are stronger than you know. The future holds good things. People need and want you here.

If you know people asking for help, please help them call a hotline or a counselor. If someone comes to mind that you know is struggling, please send them a text. These small things can make all the difference.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

800-273-8255